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 I want to restart everything. I want to build habits and not just achieve goals(not like I am really achieving it anyway). But yeah, I am sick of how easily my families behavior affect me. I don't want to be dependent on them and I really don't like my brother as a person. Hadn't he been related to me by blood , I would have declared him as a lost cause. But you see, I don't want to declare my brother as a lost cause. Now that I've mentioned that I wanted to restart. I actually started looking for gymnastics classes but none of them are for adults and that made me really sad ,like I can't get professional assistance even if I pay for it. And if I were to learn only through screen then I guess I can always learn from internet. with that said, I looked through different stuff and realize there isn't anything that I am doing wrong and the only way to progress and learn is to practice everyday, so yeah I am gonna do that. Oh yeah, I will start Kathak Dance classes again. I can't wait to get started honestly. I do admit that I wanted to spend my expenses on different activity like Martial Arts or Gymnastics but I thought that instead of crying over things  I have no control over , I'll use the resources that I have. I am also going to apply for DL. I'll try to look for slots now. I don't have any other plan honestly. I mean dad's friend is taking forever and I don't want to pay extra 4,000 Rupees on it so. 

I really want to build my habits. I will try to get started with it.I will get started with it. AT least I won't quit. That's for sure