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I hate how I love two steps forward and 10 steps backward. Today I had a fight with my parents. 

Dad was hurt because he's dad doesn't take him seriously. Mom thought I don't take her seriously and I feel neither of them take me seriously. The point is if Mom and Dad can give me at least a 10 mins of peacefulness when I wake up, my day would be better. 

So yeah, today I didn't get that. I tried to pick myself up and do the things are my pace but at the same time not disturb others. And that is what happened but dad just went on and on and then I retaliated. I had a fight with mom as well. I wish they were more open to communication. It's like when I am talking to them, they're like she's stupid and her opinions doesn't matter. 

And now tomorrow I have to go on this trip I am not even interested in. But ughhhhh, like my opinion matters. 

I didn't do anything other than French and I will most definitely won't have any time on Saturday and Sunday. So I'll just let it fuck. With the long pending list, I have I don't think so That I'll be even able to complete it this year 😂😭. But anyways. NO MORE FUCKED UP MONDAYS AND FRIDAYS. I don't really know what to do or how handle things at this point. I have decided to let the moment decide my flow. 

But yeah one good thing I realized is, I like the work that I am doing now. I don't think Engineering was a bad idea anymore. I feel I have got the hang of it now. 

I'll start blogging and Engineering at the same time. 

So yeah, I'll be an Engineer and an Entertainer both❤. Like get the best of both world. And with the limitless world around me. I think that's achievable 🌸