8/90

 I was sooooo emotionally drained I swear. My day started with a funny dream. So I was in a car with Jungkook and Jhope and Jungkook was driving and I was sitting at the back with JHope. Then 

I said "Jungkook shiiiii "  

Jungkook: Neeeeeeee

 A: "Marryyyyyyy meeeee"

 Jungkook: "Neeeeeee" *in a flat tone*

A: "Did he understand what I said?"

JHope: gesturing I don't think so

BUT rest of my day was shitty as hell. I slept all day and was hella depressed. I still have not gotten over the fact that I didn't clear interview. I feel even Ananya is not where she wanted to be and this job is a consolation prize for her. And I realized everyone (most of the people I know) have consolation prizes.

But this job prize is something I need. Nothing in my family's (incl. mine) seems to be working out.

Beer House is still closed and we don't know how long it will stay that way. We don't know when will I find my jib. It's all sooo trickyyy and based on luckkk.

Though I think I lost this interview because I fumbled. But if confidence is what they are looking for , I will write to the CEO of Apisero ,once my LinkDIn looks good enough.

Also, I am done sulking about my state. So yeah, I am gonna buckle up and make the remaining days of these 90 days count and reach my goals.

I am thinking I should write down the list I write on notes here so as to store my evaluation.

Ps: I have decided I wont eat chocolates or ice creams until I find a job which pays me 5Lpa and above 

No kpop content is no longer a sacrifice because Kpop isn't that deep love