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I guess I feel hopeless. I mean, I don't really see any ray that drives me towards it. I am doing the bare minimum when I know I should be doing a lot. I don't really know how to go about it. How to motivate myself. 

I honestly, do wanted to move to new place, be independent etc. Etc. But now, I dont want to because I don't want to leave leo, Mom will be alone(I am sure she isn't going to miss me, but I'd like to stay here for her) nd of course, because Mu sigma isn't paying me well at all. 

They can't spoonfeed me, in fact none should. So yeah, my job is on me. 

I want to find a better job. I want to feel motivated and hopeful again. 

At this point, I don't even care if I'll be motivated and lazy, I just wNt to be motivated.