10/90

Today was just lazy. I couldn't sleep well last night at all. I was literally playing among us in my sleep. I saw a dream that Taehyung was my friend. He was getting ready and I was like be careful you'll ruin your clothes etc. Etc. Basically treating him like a celebrity and I was really caring while he was flirting with me and was like I don't care about clothes I care about you. And he was being all touchy.He had so much warmth. I looked at his hands, they were same as Shashank's. I miss him a lot. I miss his warmth. I miss that intimacy. The time O dated him, everything seemed possible and everything seemed bearable. But I know I have to move forward. I can't sulk. 

As for the rest of the day, It was just lazy. I slept all day. And really just wasted. But I'd take today as a break and start a brand new week with proper prospects and planning. 

Here's to the Week 1